Meant It All

The plan so simple, but so easy to ignore.
The places we went, standing there on the floor.
My hands grasped at you, and swatted away others.
Falling down, my words condemn me.
I meant it all.
I meant it all.
All I taught, all I came from.
I meant it all.

The cityscape bore as much beauty as you.
The plans I held would make us rise above it.
Under the water my eyes not so clear.
Under the sky my mind not so clear.
Attentive, but never when required.
Dismissive, but not at a good time.
I meant it all.
I meant it all.
All I shouted, all I demanded.
I meant it all.

Trees tumble down and the road is clear.
My sight shifting from different things
I held that which brought it all into focus.
I wondered if you could still hear me.
I soon realized I was clinging to nothing.
Your grace so far removed.
Your words burning.
I meant it all.
I meant it all.
All I killed, all I grew.
I meant it all.
All I taught, all I dismissed.
All I demanded, all I ruled.
All I saw, all I broke.
I meant it all.

All As One

It occurs to me that posting these little explanations before throwing poetry out there is often helpful, so I’ll often add annotations to them, such as this. The current piece is actually two other bits I’ve made butchered into a single new poem… that I guess is about some dude on fire and a girl he’s mad at? Fuck, I don’t know. There were two themes to each of the old poems I cut up to make this one, so from four themes, came these two. It’s obviously a lyrical piece, so no complaints about the rhyme scheme.

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All As One

If I wanted the truth, I wouldn’t be here today.
If you wanted the truth, you’d end this display.
I could be sent to hell, to climb its bowls and be here once more.
I could do all of that, but I’d only be trading hell for a war.
I could do that, but I’ve already done it before.

Your arms mean nothing to me now.
Just a game that I allowed.
Everything is fine.
Nothing is fine.
Duplicity…

If I wanted you back, I would have screamed out your name.
If I heard your words again, I’d only hear blame.
I’m stuck in your world, and it won’t stop burning.
Trying to find stability in a storm that won’t stop churning
Still trying to yell at the world to stop turning.

Your eyes mean nothing to me now.
Just my fate left, and a broken vow.
Lies whispered in my ears.
Truth is all I could hear.
Direction…

If I wanted to see your face, I’d scratch it into the wall.
I remember making you smile, but how, I can’t recall.
I’d butcher the crowds, set them to their flames.
It’s easy when you don’t even know their names.
See them fall for you, the end of all the games.

I remember you used to call out to me when you were asleep.
You’d wake up in fear, and I would sit there and weep.
You grabbed my neck and told me not to go.
I smiled, even then, but it was all for show.
Now I’m in the midst of the fire, and all you say, is “no”.

Your hands mean nothing to me now.
I’m stuck here, and I’m not sure how.
I don’t mind, why don’t you save me?
I don’t mind, why don’t you hate me?
I know what you’re saying.
All as one… move as one.
All as one… move as one.